December is such a hectic month, and last three weeks definitely proves that.Writing non stop for two long hours is not a fun thing. On the plus side, 2 weeks from now will be a breeze since there will be no school, no exam, no classes! For the past few days, I have been pampering myself with sumptuous meal and rejuvenating foot reflexology. The body deserve a rest after all.
Foot Reflexology at Happy Feet, BB.
I felt nothing worst than a zombie. My body is aching so bad that I felt like breaking them into bites and pieces. I often plead Mom to give me a massage. Although I must say Mom is not the best at it, but its better than nothing.
Me: Mom!!!!!! My body is in so much pain. Help me!!
Mom: I am so used to this. How come others don't get the pain but you do? Plastic la you. Lets see if we have time tomorrow, I'll bring you for foot reflexology. I told you, your blood is not circulating well thats why you suffer such pain, but you refuse to listen.
Me: *blur*
Haha. It is not even related. Well thats my mom, and will always be.
oh...It hurts like hell. *i can feel the blood flowing :)*
Dinner at Nirwana, Bangsar.
One fine day, Uncle Dennis asked what do i fancy for dinner. I suggested something healthy and light for my little stomach because the night before I had a rough time in the toilet. I was awaken by a severe pain on the upper stomach which later lead me to vomit and diarrhea at 3 am. Horrible enough that I had to spend whole night in the toilet.
Surprise for Louise.
Canteen.
22nd of April.
A day before L's birthday. The bunch of guys who usually do not know what to get for the girls for their birthday, decided to surprise them, namely L, Z and N with a birthday cake at school canteen. K was the one who planned on doing it and so he bought a Chocolate Indulgence. D's name was missed out, sorry.
April. I love this month. Because the entire month is showered with birthdays. Ooh la la i love birthdays. Unfortunately, things were not at best for me. Ah screw it. Anyways, N was half-absent on that day. She came after recess as she was suffering food-poisoned disease. Do you actually call it a disease??
Seventeen. 17th.
I cant wait to see my cake in 4 months time, and still counting.
Surprise party sounds fun. *winks*
haha. =O
are they actually closing their eyes??
Wishes.
I can tell L was extremely excited by her expressions.
Girl, God is up, not down!!!
She did all the cutting work.
My horny banana woman.
Thanks for the support and force, babe.
I know I need you.
Banana makes me high!
My all-time-listener.
We love you, L!
After cheer, Zoomed back to L's place. Fought for the bathroom. She won la. She used the red tape excuse. stoopid girl. Her mother suggested of having a barbeque at her home. But she REFUSED too. party-pooper. hehe. Am happy for L because she enjoyed her birthday this year and she smiled throughout the day.
It is easier for me to believe that there is a reason for the tears that I shed. I am scared, terrified, petrified. I wonder what crime have I committed, why am I the victim? A friend told me, '....life's always unfair.' They stole my tears.They stole my faith in my innocence. The stole my friend. They stole my security. Three years later I remain an outsider.
Loner. Hate the word. I do not wish to be one. Unfortunately I have found that I feel loneliest when I am unoccupied. I should learn to live in this alien land. I want life to be simple. Where could I find my comfort zone again? I knew I had the girls and was comfortable in their company. Yet life moved on and I relocated to a new space, where I am forced to create a new routine. But I fear that I am lack of courage needed to create a new comfort zone.
I want to return to my old home, my old comfort. But I cannot because that space does not exist anymore. Life happened. And that demolished my old comfort zones. I need a push over the edge...push me please?
